My First 'Love at first sight'

My first ‘love at first sight’ maybe it’s the only one but I never had thought myself to experience something like this. Always being a girl who reads a lot of novels but never trusted on those cliché love stories thinking “asa thori hota hai, sab fairy tale hai” until this happened to me. It made me realize the logic in those novels which I was afraid of reading just because of their cheesy love stories. I was way too practical and everything just washed away. It was like a tsunami that took away all the ‘param Gyan’. 

It was during winter when I had a Diwali vacation and was returning to my home from where I study recently. My only train is always late no matter what time of the year it is, the crowd and the delay are never sorted. Well, being a responsible passenger I came to the station assuming that it will arrive at its scheduled time but this time it was unusually very late than the other days. The train which was supposed to be there at the station at 8 in the morning was delayed 14 hours and I was early at the station. I was not traveling alone so I thought I won’t get bored. Well sometimes I manage not to get bored so I judge random people for what they are doing, kids playing around, people leaving, people arriving, calling out each other’s names and searching for their person in that crowd is something a wonderful experience to notice. You might not call it judging but I try me all detective skills there to predict what the person is trying to do. I had my reservation done in the AC coach so I had a good place to sit and enjoy the railway Wi-Fi with a charging point. Charging point is something YOU NEED the most.

After spending so many hours in the waiting room, I and my friend decided to sit outside at the platform and enjoy watching people. We saw a group of people of similar age as ours just entered the station. The way they were talking and their way of dealing with things made us realize that they were on a college trip and were returning. I was sitting inactively until I saw that face, that handsome face. He was not the muscle man but there was something in his eyes that I couldn’t resist myself smiling at him. I was gazing at him continuously. I did not realize this until my friend asked: “ what is wrong ? Why are you smiling like an idiot?” I tried hard to turn my face but I was smiling like a total idiot. It was cold and a super windy day. And the whole day I was ranting about how much cold it is, how much hungry I was and how much my head hurting due to cold but just after looking at that face I just forgot everything. I was feeling immensely amazing and waiting this long seemed worthwhile. And now it was my friend’s duty to find out what has happened. She could easily figure out with my weird behavior that I am gazing at a guy.

He looked back at me and smiled at my stupid face. Oh my god! He noticed that I was shamelessly gazing at him for around 30 min!! Yes! 30 min have passed and I am still abnormal. His eyes were the most beautiful part of his entire personality. They were so deep, so dense that I just want to look into them. It was non-resisting to look in those beautiful eyes and not to fall in love with them. He was also enjoying what was going on so he just came and stood in front of me. That was a very amazing feeling. Just for that moment, I thought that everything is so good. It is good that the train is late, it is good that it's cold outside still I am sitting with those cold winds slapping my face. I was feeling dope without getting high. Everything seemed to fit in its place.

Then out of nowhere, a girl came out of that crowd and hugged him. Maybe she became insecure after watching me. But this too could not stop me from doing the cliché thing which I use to think happens in fairy tales only. She, at the station, kissed him and looked at me. Still, I was going way too unaffected by that kiss and enjoyed watching him. Trust me! I am not a creep but it was the most amazing experience I was enjoying and I did not want to leave it at all.

To all this, I realized that there was someone continuously speaking in my ears but I don’t know what? So I turned and found that my friend was trying to stop me because they were in a group and we were just two. Suddenly their train came in and they all started to pick up all their bags and headed towards their seats. I was sad. I felt that this moment to stay forever. As the train started to crawl he came out to the door of his coach and smiled back. I could see his train going and he was standing on the door and his head was towards me. I realized that I don’t know either his name or his city or his college. I know nothing about him. But I thought that some things should be left at those beautiful turns where you just enjoy the moment and do not keep any connection to that in the future. But the best part is the essence which you have every time you think about that moment and realize that no matter how hard life looks like. How cruel the time is, it never stays but it gives those moments in your life which you just love to think. There is a kind of peace in those moments which can make you smile at the worst times of yours, IDIOTICALLY.